Crippled Thoughts

This, um, cheesy one, I wrote for somebody I met during my senior year in lasalle. Me and my thesis buddy, teves, took up a sophomore block's LITERA2 class in COS (College of science). It was a human bio block. Why I got into a humbio block is another long story. But anyway, I met this girl there, who was pretty, and kinda, off-kilter.
To cut a winding story short, I wrote this for her, and posted it on the class' yahoo group forum under a pseudonym. It created some chatter in the class the next day. And of course I didn't reveal who I was outright, so the girl's friends got into a guessing game.

There was one time when Anna (the girl) asked me and teves point blank if we knew who this jackryan (the pseudonym i used) was, so we said no, who the hell is that? Teves went so far as to say (under his breath) that the guy was a loser (bastard!).
Eventually I revealed who I was at the end of the term, but Anna was taken already, so that was it for that. In the end it was fun, posting some poems for her, and getting bludgeoned and humiliated when she brought her boyfriend to sit in for the class' last meeting. hallelujah.

Crippled Thoughts

mask my eyes
so that i can't see
make me blind
to the beauty that stands before me

cover my ears
so that i can't hear
make me deaf
to the sweet voice that rings through my ears

remove my heart
so that i can't feel
make me numb
to these feelings that shouldn't be real

take from me
these thoughts of you
make me forget
this love that could never be true

JackRyan
03/09/2001